Walking with Jesus daily

Ever since the last post, I have spent the time experiencing different things. Issues, situations, emotions, feelings and sun burn on partial body... A fruitful time I might say, even though not all are nice and sweet.

U-Bash! As how they named this event, its basically the 'whole' unit get together during this time to know more about one another, have fun and build further relationships between one another. Its one of the days when I really enjoyed alot. Never have I felt such powerful 'family'-oriented bondship besides my own family, my relationship with my neighbours in the past and my close buddies. This event gave me alot of meaning and made me felt truely ALIVE. It also somewhat gave me an insight of what Heaven would be like when I finally finish my time here on Earth.

Continuing looking for work! As I have still not got a successful job, I was doing what I can to set plans for my goals. Teaching is what I want, but there is one time where I lost sight of this goal. It made me think alot and and consider alternatives like getting a job in other sectors. However the most important thing at that time is due to the odd occurance of FORGETTING my goal, I have very nearly compromised my whole plan as I was very concerned about financial issues and my mother, mostly. My mother has hinted to me she wanted to retire from working and rest at home. That had me re-considering the whole plan I had and I had a good talk with a few brothers about this. I was still unsure if this was the correct route I should go as I know God paved this road for me but I put my faith in Him and trusted Him.

Sports Meet! The event was announced to the whole sub-D a few weeks before and we have only a month to set up everything for the event. It falls in the period of the Chinese new year, so basically we ran short on time. However I learnt alot of things in this event. I knew more brothers and sisters closer than before and I felt a real tangible sense of belonging (What I see in Heaven that is). Its so great and so immense, that I do not want to lose sight, hearing, touch, feel, smell and sense of it.

The event itself was even greater, even when the games were not exactly going to plan, the basic objective was met and with rather great effect: that is fun. A few short hours to me was like many years of friendship and relationship being fostered in that space of time. I got closer to everyone in the sub-D (even those who were not there that day were included) and this was one of those what God has promised me when I first received Christ. Call me selfish, but that is what I can see and feel: how I can be so sure I am fostering better relationship with them is because there is Christ in their hearts and souls just as mine and it is He who is at work to bind us closer every moment. I don't mind getting 'baked' if I can build up more and better relationships with the people around me.

Courtship! On sunday, Hua Qiang and Sarah announced their official courtship. It was a joyous occasion for us and with many reasons. They are the 'pioneer' couple in our sub-D (This gives hope to many of our brothers), once again God is the match-maker (Amen!) and I don't really know why, but I just generally felt great joy for them. I don't really feel any envy or jealousy, just a broad grin whole day long. =D

Prayer and fasting! This is something I am still working on. I have been in it for 2 weeks, and many times I did not pray that much while I fast, or after the fasting period. Neither did I read much of the Bible too. Something I must change indeed. Still this period made me think through alot of things, all illustrated above and somehow my relationship with God grew stronger even if its a little bit.

There are still so many things I have yet to do. I am working towards it as I am typing and someday I will see it all come to fruition. No matter what happens, I know I am walking besides Jesus towards the end goal of my life. ^_^

Friends

To make an aquaintance is so easy. To be a friend takes more time and effort. To be a TRUE friend, you have to know the person's basic personality or core foundation of what makes a person's character.

There are times when you want to hold that person so much, yet its only a moment of passion that makes you do so. There are times when you really want to go up to to that special someone and say, "I have feelings for you." But the two of you may not be prepared for it.

When you like someone, do you go up to that person and say, "Oei, pak tor ai mai?". Or do you wait and get to know that person more and see for yourself what that person is like and whether that person is suitable for you or not? When you finally get to know someone, only then it is too late to realise you could have made the wrong move in the first place.

Time and again, you will keep wondering what makes you so attracted to that person. Many of you may say, "Is there a reason to love?". True, not all the times we can find a reason for that, but have you actually thought what that person has that makes you so "head and heels" over that person? Could it be that person has a funny personality? Or does that person has a nice heart and caring towards others that makes your heart warm as well? Perhaps even that person has a direct, or blunt, approach to life that you wish you too could have that approach. Think about what makes you so attracted to this person.

There are cases when the time spent with a person is nothing compared to the QUALITY time spent with another person. I known a friend for many years, but due to a misunderstanding started indirectly by me, he said, "Can dun be frens wif me de...". I was shocked and heartbroken by HOW a person can say even the nastiest things in a fit of the moment. There are people I have known for a short time but we feel like close kins and even share many intimate things.

I do have regrets in life, but I can look at those regrets and smile, knowing I have learnt something from it and reinforcing me in a sense that the next time I make a decision, I will make sure I choose the one I want and have no regrets whatsoever.

You choose the type of company you want, you decide whether is it worth keeping going into it or ending it. No one can seduce your decision otherwise and no matter how good other people's words are to you, in the end you make the choice because it is your life.